RE A seminar 
Wednesday, September 27, 2006, 02:02 AM
I went to a seminar yesterday, I had to listen very hard in order to be able to hear the speakers (there were four) some where easier then others.

It made me realise that I would not be able to give this degree of listening if I was back at Uni and I would still need a note taker as I struggled to write things down and also was not sure if I had heard correct or not.

However I did get quite a bit of information and more so than I normally would have got. What I did not always get was the questions that other people asked. But every now and again I would which is a difference from how it used to be. The other thing I noticed was because I could hear the speaker I could eventually figure out where they were. If they spoke again I knew where to look because I could identify their voice to them.

The way it used to be, was I would become aware that someone else was speaking beacuse people would stop looking at the front, and I would follow their direction to try and find out who was speaking. Sometimes I was to late and sometimes I got the end of it. If there was a chatty one I could never identify them so it was always a hunting game for me. Thats changned now.

I think for short seminars (two hours) I can cope, but I was shattered by the time I got home and went stright to bed. I am still really tired this morning too!

I have a two day course comming up soon and it will be intresting to see how I cope there. This will be the basis for deciding what support I might need on a full time course next Jan/Sep (I have not decided yet when I will enroll as I am waiting for the new credits to come into pratice as they are abolishing the orginal course for a whole new idea!)

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RE food 
Sunday, September 24, 2006, 06:14 AM
I can't remember if I mentioned this before but if I did'nt then I should have.

After the operation my tongue was numb on the left side (same side as the implant) and food tasted odd. Then it was very sour and later on (a few weeks) it was bitter. Months after (approx 12-14) things suddenly went salty, then VERY salty :eek: I was no longer able to eat crisps as they tasted of pure salt :uh: that went away after about 2-3 months and the only thing that I am left with is the fact that creamy things do not feel creamy and sweet things do not taste as sweet as I expect. However we had a pudding last night with a fruit sauce and it tasted really sharp (which I like) but not to sweet (which I hate) and my partner said it was very sweet and he was suprised I liked it. It was not a pudding I would have chosen (It was acutally my partners I was helping him to finish it - he looked like he was struggling, honest) :lol:

As you probably have guessed by now we went out for dinner last night, and to my horror our fav place which does tapas is no more. Its now a swank up market english resurant. We decided it stay and the food was very nice but I did morn the death of our tapas home. Where we were sitting was fine when we arrived, but as it got darker the shaddows from the lead windows started to fall on James face. Normally this would have bothered the hell out of me as it made lipreading very difficult. Although it was noisy, I was still able to follow (with a little difficulty) what he was saying. The other thing I noticed was I was able to hear the waitress very well. Before my implant waiters and waitress's were silent people to me, I never heard then speak they would whip in and whip out with the menu and I would always end up muttering to James "what did she say the special was?" or "what did she recomend! or "what did she say was very good" it was almost if I was detacted from everyone else and James was my life line into the hearing world in which I did not have a rightful place. I always used to be so amazed to how easy it was to feel so loney and isolated in a room full of people. This ment that I would hog someones attention because one person was much easir to lipread than several. These days I have become much more socialable than I ever thought would be possible as I have always regarded my self as a confident person. I would not say my confidence has improved, but what has changed is the ease in which I can be socialble if I chose too which is a lovely feeling.

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RE I have been busy! 
Friday, September 22, 2006, 06:57 PM
I have been so busy at the moment that I have not had a spare moment to stop and think about what I have been hearing! :yuk:

I think for the last month itís pretty much been a case of things settling down and I have not had any new sounds. I thought ah there you go, my honey moon is over now this is as good as it gets and to be honest its way better than good and I was very happy.

Well, whadoya know! I have had my Iron for 5 years now and I never knew that it went ding when it needed water! :eek:I mean how can they get a sound in an iron!!!

People that crack their knuckles drive me insane! :eek: Itís so loud!

Itís getting easier to hear a person in the passenger side when I am driving.

I now drive around with so much confidence because I know that my tom tom sat nav will get me there fine and I can always hear it really well.

I now have a radio in my study. This is a bit hit and miss as I sometimes forget to turn it on, as I have spent 30 years with no background sound and it just does not occur to me to turn the radio on. When I do remember, I tend to get words here and there, and this gets clearer and clearer till I get the odd three words here and there, then the odd five etc and so on but its not easy.

The telephone, I use all the time, although I have occasionally got in to a muddle. The hardest thing to hear is names and names of places. However I hear numbers (mostly) quite well. Itís really frustrating but I think itís not an implant thing. Itís a telephone thing because the amount of people who struggle to hear my name is amazing and they always ask me to spell the name of the street etc so I am guessing that hearing people struggle with this on the phone too.

Now I know why people never seemed to remember the name of who they spoke to when they spoke to (normally a really important person) someone on the phone, they most likely did not hear it in the first place.

Lastly I am having trouble knowing when a sound is something that I should be listening to or not. Sometimes I turn round when I am out and about in town to a sound and listen to it coz I think someone might have said something to me. When in fact I find that I am actually listening to a private conversation and the couple are giving me odd looks.

Other times my work mates can scream till they are blue in the face and I do not respond. When I think back I do recall a sound, and ONLY when I think back I realise it did actually sort of sound like my name. But at the time it just bugged me so I ignored it and filtered it out! :eek: normally this happens when there is a lot going on and to many sounds are around me. I find it harder to hear on the phone when the six of us are together, but fine if I am on my own or there is one other person in the room for example.

I canít hear a thing if the person who answers the phone is in the gym, on a boat, in a place where other people are talking. They have to be in a quite place too :lol:

I watched a programme about Jonny Cash today. Most of his music I cant hear the monotone in it. It sounds flat and boring. The song he sang before he died however ďHurtĒ sounds hunting and moving and sent shivers down my spine. His daughter Roseanne Cash I think her name is, sounds so much like him and sings in the same way as he does. Its hit and miss with music and very much depends on the mood of the person singing. If they put their heart and soul into it, then it might sound as rich as it should, but a lot of the time it does not sound like a song voice to me, just very flat. I am sure this will improve though!

I started a basic maths course and a dress making course. I informed everyone that I am profoundly deaf in one ear and I have an implant in the other. So far I have not felt the need to have a note taker on either of these courses. For me this is amazing as normally I would struggle and could not cope without a note taker.

The only problem I have is the basic maths class is super friendly and they chat a lot, I spend so much time listening to them and also to the class tutor that I get tired and the maths aspect of it does not sink in as much as I would like. I also get a head ach and my eyes hurt, where I start lip-reading cos my head hurts!

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Re life is so easy now 
Friday, August 25, 2006, 01:14 PM

Today I went to work and later on I had to go out and walked all the way down to the car only to find my manager had blocked me in (we are allocated two car spaces for the 6 of us) Normally I would off had to walk ALL the way back up the stairs, across the two halls, through the dinning room, across another hall and up some more stairs and ask can you move your car. :lol: Today I walked to the car got my mobile out and rang him and said hi ya can you move your car! :clap:

I listen to the radio when I am driving to work, sometimes I concentrate too much when I should be concentrating on my driving! :uh:

I tried out my partner's tom tom stat navigator the other day and it worked really well. I could hear the directions clearly telling me where to go and I did not have to study the screen that much.

I liked it so much that I now have my own which is brighter and newer software. I tried it out today and it was so easy to use, it was not something I would have considered using before the implant. I can say good bye to getting lost, being late and struggling with the A to Z! :clap:

I can ring James now and ask him a quick question rather than sending him a text and having to wait for the answer.

I met up with a friend the other day for lunch (who also has an implant that was done 10 years ago) and although the cafe was busy I could still hear her rather well. She had forgotten her mobile, but I was able to make the call on mine. Normally I would have asked a hearing person or the station master to make the call by explaining that we were deaf. I used to hate the dependence on total strangers but now itís no longer necessary.

I am glad I became a happier, stable, confident person while I was still very deaf because it has shown me that itís possible to over come problems that sometimes seem very great. However, some how because of that, having the implant has been like being reborn into a whole new life but I am essentially still me, but a door has opened to a world that I have never experienced before and I like it.

I am shocked to how poor my speech became pre implant. I never realised that there were so many words that I was saying wrong.

Now I can hear much clearer I am learning to say words correctly and I am even expanding on my vocabary. My spelling is still not so good though!:wiggle:

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Re I am going to do a few courses 
Sunday, August 20, 2006, 10:37 AM
I am currently looking for a dress making course and a maths course.

Once I have got these out of the way I am thinking about doing a French basic language course the following year and possibly a French GCSE.

I feel that if I give myself a year of listening and using the phone -by then I will be ready to learn a new language and I am sure I can hear well enough now to learn one.

We go to France a lot and I noticed last year I could hear a lot of words that people were saying. It pays to learn a second language and it will look good on my CV plus for me it would be achieving something I never dare dream would be possible.


Ooh we have brought a digital Philips radio from Costo and dug out a cheap MP3 player that James brought of eBay because it was only 8 pounds and the memory card that goes with it is worth more than 8 pounds normally.


We have popped on a few songs which I know off and I am going to try it at the Gym tomorrow.

I also have a microphone and speakers and James old webcam for MSN Messenger now so chats on that should be interesting!

I went swimming today and decided to brave the steam room. I donít like the door because its black glass and its hard to know how many people are already in there.

As it happens there were only two people in there but it was a very nice steam room with tiny star lights on the ceiling which changed colour. The steam also had a lovely smell of eucalyptusa nd it was very relaxing. The only thing I did feel was terribly lonely :sad: in there as I could not wear my processor and I just sat there and hoped that no one would try talking to me :ooer:Ė not that I would know as the steam was so thick that I could not see a thing and with out my hearing aid and processor I can't hear a thing!:eek::uh:

I do plan to spend a lot more time in the steam room after the gym and swimming though as it was so relaxing!

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RE I am getting a MP3 player 
Saturday, August 19, 2006, 03:12 PM
I have joined the gym - but its so loud in there I cant hear the TV or the music. The gym is cool though as they put the subtitles on.

I have been meaning to get a radio for background sound for ages which is on my wish list at the moment not sure what type though something for my craft room.

However, I thought it would be really cool to get a MP3 Player as they are so small these days and store heaps of music on them, apparently they are really cheap of ebay.

Even if I cant hear the words it would be great to just have background music where I pick up the odd word.


I am using the phone now at work on a regular basis. I have only had a few little muddles! Otherwise its really saved me a lot of time as I can have quick calls to make appointments etc and I have not used my mini com once! I am also using my mobile a lot more now which is great for me as normally when I am out and about I am stuck if I need to call the office. Sometimes I do not answer it though as I do not always hear it. Everyone else does though and they give me funny looks as it is set to ring VERY loudly in my bag! *grin*

We were meant to go to a BBQ this weekend in Wales. But it was so wet and stormy we cancelled as I head there were flash floods and road blocks etc and I was rather worried about not being able to get there or back. Worst weekend for a BBQ really! On Friday I not only saw the lightening but I head the rain and claps of thunder rumbling as well! I actually knew there was going to be a storm ( it got dark which is a bit of a give away) but then I started to hear it rolling across the sky over the building where I work. I have never heard that before it as so amazing. I heard the zap of lightening crashing which was really loud and clear. Then big fat fast rain drops hitting the window which sounded brillient :wiggle:

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RE Using Stat Nav Tom Tom is now easy 
Friday, August 18, 2006, 05:24 PM
My poor little car died last week, :sad::eek: I think the trips to Wirral was just to much and it gave up the ghost and died. The head gasket blew and was going to cost 600 pounds but the car only cost me 300! So we decided to buy me a better car. I now have a Fiat Punto which is a Aqua colour with power steering and electric windows! Quite posh! Its lovely to drive so I am very happy with it.

I have been using the stat nav Tom Tom to find my way round, I would not use it before as I was worried that I would not be able to hear it and I was concerned that I would look at it to much rather than watching where I was driving. As it happens I find it very easy to hear and I now get to all new locations very easy which is great for me as I normally find driving to new places stressful. Not any more! :clap:

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RE I have gained a cockney accent! 
Saturday, August 12, 2006, 06:28 AM
Its true :eek: I finally have a cockney accent :eek: When I was just a hearing aid user no one could ever identify where my accent was from not even people who lived in the same area as me :uh:

I have had lots of chats to various people about it and more recently my partner. We both agree that I had a accent which was called a "zoe accent" one that was mine and mine alone because of the way I pronounced words (mainly through lip-patten) it altered the sound of my voice so I did not have a regional accent.

Since working in a new area and more importantly using the phone four people in the last week have said "are you from london?" and I am so surprised that its noticeable!

I have never had an accent before, I quite like it :lol: does this mean I am part of the in club now? :wiggle:

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RE hearing and identifying where a Police Car is coming from 
Thursday, August 10, 2006, 06:21 AM
:wiggle:Today I was driving to work and I head a police car, normally my heart would fill with dread as I tend to see it when its behind me (normally with a rather cross policeman glearing at me :eek:)

Today though, I turned my head right, then left, this told me it was not behind me. So I tilted my head side ways to the right and I could hear it was most likly in front of me. I still could not quite make out if it was coming from the left of me or my right but it did mean I could keep looking in front for it.

As it happens it came from my right and I saw it miles and miles before it went pass me!

what a blessing! :ahh:

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Using the phone and another first 
Monday, August 7, 2006, 02:19 PM
Using the phone for work is hard work. The computers are old so I have to sit quite a way from it so I do not get the feedback. Other people chatting on their phones means I have to listen harder.

Otherwise its a blessing to be able to use the phone, its quicker and easier than typetalk. Most of the time people dont even know I am deaf if its a quick to the point call. There have been a few occassions where we both have got confused and I have said "I'm sorry I am actually hard of hearing can we start again?" and its been fine.

The only pain is most people try and answer their phone in two to three rings and it takes me about five rings to change the settings on the processor before I can answer it! I guess I could say "Hello this is zoe tomlin calling, can you please hold one second."

One of my work mates is sight impaired and he was running late today for various reasons and asked if anyone could drop him off at the train station. Normally I would bulk at offering to do this if it was in a area where I did not know where I was going as I am quite a nervous driver. But I volunteered, as it happends he gave very good directions and because the implant is on my left - I could hear him very well. We got there with no problems and I was almost bursting with pride!

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