Re I never knew people were so friendly 
Wednesday, July 4, 2007, 03:49 PM - General
:kiss: I never knew people were so friendly. I never realised how isolating being deaf made me.

I have this terrible habit of reading a paper while sitting in cafes and normally when I look up my food is there as if by magic before me, and nobody else around.

Now, I dont always hear the first time, but I do hear a person ask me a question or try and get my attention. I tend to say "oh sorry I did not hear you, I am deaf"

I think they go back to the kitchen and let everyone else know, because they make allowances and ensure eye contact. I now get offers of water, salt, and anything else I may want.

People tend to ask more questions and appear intrested in what I am doing. They smile more and are friendly.

I think of all the times when I have thought the person was cold or sharp or just not very nice, and I think it was because they thought I was rude, stuck up or ignorant because I had not answered them - or that I was the one being unfriendly because I was so anti sociable.

Everywhere I go I find people are friendly, I respond to their questions easier now, and they smile and engage in conversation. I speak to people more these days, even a laugh and a joke with strangers over a suitable water proof coat can make my day seem less bleak.

Who would have thought that deafness could have such an impact on mood, personality, socialiseation, a sense of happyness.

:ahh:

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RE Music 
Sunday, July 1, 2007, 01:14 PM
Just latley I have noticed that I am starting to pick up music quite well. Normally relaxing stuff such as piano has been very nice to hear while reading the paper and having a coffee.

Sometimes it has been so nice to hear, it has brought tears to my eyes and a lump to my throat! I have never been able to hear anything like it.

The other day while in my car I was stuck in traffic. Normally people at work would wonder where I was, and sometimes I would arrive to where I was going very late only to be told that the person had to cancell.

This time I stopped the car and called to explain that I was in traffic and would they be able to wait a bit longer for me. They were able to do this so I did not end up having a wasted journey. I head everyone fine. Then I recived a call to say my next couple had asked if I could make the appointment earlier in the afternoon - so I was able to call them and make it earlier. For me this was amazing because I have never spoken to them before and I had no difficulty.

It is just getting easier and easier with pratice!!!



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RE Just when you think things can't get any better! 
Sunday, June 24, 2007, 11:55 AM
I am answering the land line like a pro now, and it is getting much easier to hear names.

I am also able to hear the ring tone on my mobile much better.

I have noticed that when I am in a cafe or shop I am starting to be able to hear the music. Some times it is quite relaxing and I really enjoy it.

I find that I hear soothing soft relaxing music best. Sometimes its so overwhelming that it brings a lump to my throat and makes me tearful!

It is very empowering to be able to hear as much as I do.

I am starting to notice when someone appraoches me in a noisy enviorment, I might not hear what they say the first time - but I am more aware that they are there and speaking to me! This means I dont miss out as much as I used to. For example I got ice and a glass with my water today, normally I would have not answered to the question. Or in panic said no, thus turning down the offer. This time I heard her say would you like ice with that very clearly which was a big thing for me!

Its strange how just when you think it can't possibly get any better - it does.

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Re insurance and other things 
Saturday, June 2, 2007, 01:48 PM
Nikki mentioned her center advised her to insure her implant. When I first approached my center about insurance when they gave me the plant, they advised me that it was unnecessary to insure it as the NHS would give me a new one on the event that it was broken as long as it was due to wear and tear or accidental breakage.

So far the implant has creaked on a number of occasions due to a design fault and the coil has split also due to a design fault, on two occasions my battery pack gave up the will to live and the NHS has replaced these.

I did have a bit of a battle getting them to give me a spare coil the last time I took my broken one back to be replaced. (they have in the past always given me two) their argument was because coils cost £80 and mine was that if I only have one coil and it breaks it will cost me more than £80 to take the day of work to drive and collect a new coil. I asked for a catalogue so that I could order my own as the cochlear website does not seem to sell on line and I was more than happy to pay for my spare if thatís what it took. In the end they agreed I could have a spare but it would be one of the longer wired stock they had because no body wanted them!!

The only complaint I have is everybody pays their way for the NHS and therefore we should expect a good service when we need it. Money is wasted all the time for various reasons and the NHS should not be struggling like it is and therefore itís not a good enough excuse for a less than good service.

As it happens I have insured my processor for theft and loss, on the off changes that while I am on holiday somebody steals it while I am in the sea snorkeling or something. Or I accidentally lose the replacement some how or its taken from the hotel (having the holiday loaner cochlear implant did make us nervous so we locked it in the hotel safe)



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I have been hearing......... 
Tuesday, May 22, 2007, 11:22 AM
music! I heard the lyrics "Ghost busters, who ya gonna call, Ghost Busters!!"

Euro song contest. The lady with the light thingy sent shivers down my spine! it was much more fun listening to it than before the implant.

I went to watch "28 weeks later at the cinema" the subtitles were a bit late and I was disapointed to see that I could not hear it as well as I was hoping. I think it depends on the speakers and I suspect it was to loud for me so the quality of the speech was disorted somehow.

I do cope quite well with the tv when its not subtitled these days and can get by if I have too.

James has a new mobile phone which I tried and it seemed more clear than mine. He also got the neckloop for it which I tried and that really helped. The next test is to try it in a noisy enviroment. I can also plug a cochlear wire in to the neckloop to the processor and it should block out background sounds. If it works then it will be excellent for work and I will be getting a new phone:woowoo:

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RE Train announcement and other things 
Monday, May 7, 2007, 12:13 PM
We went to London over the weekend and for the first time in my life I heard a part of the train annoucnement.

It said Ladies and Gentleman blurgh baaa blurg blurg!

Even so I was shocked that I head the start of an announcment in a busy noisy area. Who knows, one day I might even hear the full announcment!

Birds and purring also seem loud and rich sounding these days. As does a rather large cat falling of the fence :eek: It actually sounded rather painful...

I now hear the hands free phone in the car depending on who is speaking (ie not my brother who mumbles - but any one else seems fine)



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RE it just gets easier 
Saturday, April 28, 2007, 11:22 AM
I am still using the phone at work. I have noticed that I am able to hear my voice a bit more now. I think itís because I have got use to the difference in the phones and I just pick up the sound of my voice a bit better now.

I still have trouble with names of people and places - but this is getting much easier - the more I practice the easier it gets. I have got people to spell things out - which sometimes works and sometimes makes it harder - I really need to be more honest with people from the start of the call and explain that I am hearing impaired - but I find this really difficult as most of the time I am speaking to people who have never met me.

Batteries going in the middle of convos are also an ongoing problem! Due to the amount of batteries I get thru in a week I worry about losing the dead ones and a child swallowing them :eek: so regularly clearing out my bag is a big thing.

As I am still new in my job people do not know how to cater for my needs. They see me speaking on the phone, answering things without lip-reading and assume that my hearing is very good.

The other day a women asked me a question with her back to me and normally I would hear her but she was standing in a funny position where she was pointed away from my processor side - and I was not able to position myself so that the processor side could be pointed at her - so I kept missing what she was saying. She was also talking with her hand over her mouth which made everything muffled. I had to take her a side and explain the difficulty and why I was not hearing her as well as normal. She was very embarrassed and I was a little too because we both know that she had not meant to be insensitive in anyway - more that she just did not realise that I am still moderately hearing impaired even if I am able to use the phone.

I also had a funny situation where one person introduced me to another person who did not know me. As I turned away to say hello I missed the name that was said so it got repeated. The new person said "you donít have to repeat yourself" and got told " well ZoŽ is deaf" she said "ah, well I am well known for putting my foot in it - nice to meet you!" made me laugh sometimes it seems politer to say "I am deaf" before "Hi I'm ZoŽ!" when I was younger I used to think that my name should have been "I'm deaf" as that was all I ever seemed to say when I met new people!!! Itís a bit of a mouth fall to say Hi I'm ZoŽ and just so that you are aware I am deaf." When you first meet someone.


I was readly Ivan's blog and he really hit the nail on the head when he described "{not hearing ] new sounds anymore, but what I do get is a greater 'roundness' and fullness of sound"

For some time now I have noticed the same thing - but could not put it in to words how to describe that I am hearing things in a way that is different to how I first heard them. Some how they now sound more like the sound than they used too. Everything has a richness to it and the mechanical edge that used to be there has gone.

I hope he finds the info about the cam shell mobile useful - I find using this type of mobile is much better and clearer than any other mobile. Some mobiles are terrible for interference and these should be avoided - I am able to use my cam shell both with the T and without which goes to show there is no need to suffer the interference - just change the mobile!

I know its stupid but I find myself saying the words " how did I get by/ cope with out the telephone with my job" I know I did - and at the time I thought it was easy to do. But now I look back and think Jeeze " how on earth did I do it?" and to be honest I dont know, I must have been more out of the loop than I fully realised - maybe I made the most of Email/ fax and depended on others to make calls for me. My confidence is really growing as I feel less dependant on others and more able to do my job. I can keep up in meetings much better.

The only down side - is I am shattered after big meetings or if I have been to more than four interviews in a day. The effort of listening is still very draining on my brain and sometimes I feel so tired that I have to go to bed early to get some sleep so I can be fresh for the next day. I am sure as my brain gets use to working this hard, I will start to feel less tired.



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RE Info about Microphone protectors 
Thursday, April 19, 2007, 11:32 AM
I wondered what the Microphone protectors were for as they did not seem to need replacing like any other part of the processor.

Someone told me that you could change the colour of them - to give it an individual feel - but I felt that this was not really the main purpose.

SO! I went and asked on of the hospital staff - they did not know!! Eventually I found someone who did know - apparently it is exactly what it said on the box - it projects the microphone. If you work in dusty places then you might need to change it more often. The paper in it goes from white to dark grey/ black. If you work in an office then you might need to only change it once every 6 to 12 months.

Of course I had to then have a look at mine because itís never been changed - so I took the dish off and unclipped the protector and it looked fine. Only then did I realise that as I took the dish off the pin had not come off with it and this was still in the processor. I thought it had come off to easily! Normally I find the dish fine to put on but a bugger to remove. *sigh*

The only thing I am a bit surprised about is no one ever said anything about checking that the micophone protector is clear as it can affect the quality of the sound if it gets dusty.

Luckily I have a spare dish and I had to request another.

Sometimes I donít know why I just donít leave things well alone!


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RE I started a new job 
Tuesday, March 13, 2007, 04:32 PM
I started a new job on Monday, my new office has a large number of people in it. So many names to remember! :uh:

One of the things I noticed was the very newish posh looking internet phones they have. I decided that I should at least test one out before asking if my own (beloved) BT land line phone could be plugged in somewhere.

I went down to the reception to explain what I was doing and that I needed to test it out. So when they got an odd call it would be me! :lol:

Lucky that I did warn them as they would have thought they had a dirty heavy breather down the line :eek: as for the first few min's of the call I was pushing the volume as I could not hear a thing. Then I head a faint worried "hello?" The phone was very cool as I can get it to go a lot louder than I need to.

Must remember to turn this down eventually though when I leave the position or it will burst someone's ear drum! :ooer:

The only draw back is I canít hear myself very well. With the BT phone I can hear both. With this phone I can hear the speaker very well indeed.

I have been making calls all day. The only thing I have found is that I lack confidence to know if I have heard correctly ie names and addresses. As I do not have a log in code for the computer yet I have to check the post code etc on the map for most part I get it correct or close to correct - :clap:

So itís worth persevering with as it will mean I can answer any phone in the office which is a rare luxury in deed :cool:


Although I am hearing very well I still like to be able to see everyone who is talking. So in a large group if a person is standing between two other people blocking my view I do not hear as well. (this normally tends to happen when I am not actually part of the conversation but I have heard something that has triggered my interest and made me look up and attempt to join in - this is not something that ever used to happen so as a consequence I would be quite isolated or behind slightly on current topics or office news) My new team are very deaf aware as I have observed them gradually moving themselves in to a position so that they are no longer blocking my view and I can see everyone, without being asked or making it a big issue. It is a big issue for me as they are so discreet about it that I always make sure I give them my biggest and best smile of :thanx:

I have already been asked to join the night out with the team and I have only been here two days! I think I am going to like it hereÖÖ

I have also noticed the different way people pronounce things and I am starting to ask if the way I say things are wrong or if its just a dialect thing ie

status = "stayus" or "stat us"

is one that I am hearing a lot on TV right now.

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re private health insurance 
Monday, March 12, 2007, 04:50 PM
I have collected my letter from my gp and just need to send it off to my private health insurance wish me lots of :luck: as I think I am going to need it.

Plan B is that we have friends who play the lottery - they have promised me that if they win big time they will pay for my second implant :ooh: awwww

Plan C is that I start playing the lottery myself! :lol:

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