Re My best mates birthday party 
Saturday, July 29, 2006, 02:12 PM

It was a real test today as it was my best mates birthday. There must have been over 25-30 people and I only knew six of them! Normally I would stick to the people I knew like glue and hardly say a thing to any one new because its to hard and I tend to hog one person as its easier to lipread someone I know.

I had the added bonus of being able to lipread conversations that were not directed at me, as well as taking part in conversations with people I did not know. I thought I heard quite a bit more than I normally would.

All in all it was a great day :clap: Happy birthday Debbie! :ooh::kiss::cheers::wiggle:

Re Today I had to go to court 
Friday, July 21, 2006, 03:27 PM
Well today I had to go to court. :eek:

In the past went I have gone to court I have not been able to follow what is going on. More recently before I had the implant I could not even hear the Judge :sad: It was pointless for me and I really needed a note taker which is expensive and time consuming to get hold off. Sometimes I used to pass the buck to the court and respectfully request them to organise something for me :lol: Most of the courts are old and do not have the screens that American seen to have were a speed typist writes down everything thats said and it is turned into text for the person to read.

Anyway, as I was saying I went to court today and I sat behind the solictor. Although she was faced away from me I got almost everything she said. I could hear the Judge if I listend carfully but then she spoke very softly so it was pretty amazing I got what she said.

My only problem was I was not always aware who was going to speak as no one made it clear who they were directing their questions at. And I needed to turn towards the sound so that I could hear more clearly.

This is a pain because I end up twisting myself so that the sound is directed at my processor which is on my left.

I really can see the vaule of having two! Maybe one day I will be able to do this we will have to wait and see.


RE Phone at work 
Tuesday, July 18, 2006, 04:41 PM
I made quite a few calls today and its so much easier!!! I think it must have been a faulty processor as now things sound really sharp. clear and as they should.

when using the phone I have told some people that I am hard of hearing and they have been very good with repeating things for me - although its not often needed.

The phone seems quite loud and very clear and its easy to use but I feel self concious using it!

I felt quite proud of my self! It made me smile all day.

I closed the window, shut the door, took a deep breath, tried to gather my thoughts and then turned my setting on to 3T. Then someone walked in and asked me a question and I had to turn it back on to setting 1!:uh:

There are some limitations to all these settings, they are not something where you can do a quick change! Each one likes to flash on and off and settle before moving to the next setting :eek: if you get to impaitent then it doubles up and you end up on a setting you really did not want, and have to start the whole progress again! (give me a wheel any day)


RE Friday Map check 
Friday, July 14, 2006, 10:54 AM
I took my bt converse 325 phone into work today and tried it out. Although it did work, it was a lot better but I was getting a really loud buzzing and I thought it must be the line. However when I put the phone down I realised I could still hear the buzzing :eek:

I turned it on to setting 1 and the buzzing stopped. phew.

Due to speech sounds going quite I had an appointment this afternoon to have my map checked.

We tried a new processor and it sounded a lot better. So the conclusion is that the speakers on my old processor had gone wonky :eek:

Which is rather worrying as I have only had it from new since May as the other one went wonky when we were in the USA.

we tried the new processor with the phone and I got the buzzing there too. We tried it on a different phone in another room and there was no buzzing :uh: The only thing that was different in that room was that there was no computers. So we went back into the orginal room and turned the computer off and again no buzzing. So we concluded older pcs make the processor buzz. As I sit in front of my pc at home when I am talking on the phone and I have never got any buzzing!

So I guess when I make a phone call I should make sure I am not sitting beside a older computer, and it it does buzz to move away from it!!!

I also mentioned that the silver processor was making my ear sore because the plastic had gone rough and it looked as though it was coming off.

As I do have allergies to metal we wondered if I was reacting to the metallic paint on the processor.

So I agreed (sadly) :waah: to try the flesh toned one :sad: I donít like it as much as the silver one - but I can hardly carry on with a sore ear! Although I did think about it for quite some time!!!

I think itís horrible to look at, but with dark brown hair (and highlights) it seems to disappear and is not very easy to see at all - so at least thatís one bonus for flesh colours!

I just felt like Seven of Nine with my silver one! :lol:and I quite liked it.... grumble grumble.

On the forum we were talking about how the wait leading up to the operation affects us. For me it was also a question of how it might affect my identity. I have spent years being positive about the fact I was deaf - this made others be positive about it too. I have worked hard to get where I am, and I like what I have become.

"I wondered if I was throwing a part of me away, how would I change? What would it do to the person I had become? Being Deaf was a big part of who I am."

Itís been a year now and I am still adapting to the changes that the implant has had on my life. It is still a confusing time and my identity as someone with an implant has still not been fully established. It is almost as though I have been given a key which opens a door to a new way of living - but in order to use it I have to leave the old way of life behind.

I know that the implant has changed my personality to a certain degree - I am more interested in people, I ask more questions that are not relevant to the task but show that I am interested in knowing them more. Before I had the implant, I would ask only what I needed to know nothing more.

I wonder how it will be in two years time, will I have changed as much again? I always felt I had a six since with people sometimes, I could guess what they were about to say based on their body language and previous conversation. Sometimes people would tell me - itís almost if you read my mind and spoke for me. Will I lose this? Or are these skills with me for life now?

I have asked James my partner how he thinks I have changed since the implant - he said:

I am far more relaxed these days; I used to be so worried about not being able to hear people, not being able to do my job. He feels I have always been a confident person, but since the implant I am far more confident and opertmistic about the future.

James thinks that I am much more easily going these days, and a much happier person. He also feels that the implant has enabled me to make and maintain friendships much easier than in the past.

In the past unless the other person was really special, then trying to keep a friendship going via text and email was pretty hard going. These days if I have not seen someone for a while I can call them.

I have noticed because I do call them, they tend to email me a lot more too! Strange how it works but thatís just the way things are I guess.

Re Phone calls at work 
Thursday, July 13, 2006, 03:47 PM
Well I tried the phone at work and it was not a sucess!

The voice on the other end was tiny and I struggled to hear it!

BUT It sounded just like a voice but far far away. The words that were said I heard them as whole words. Not like it used to be at all, where each word would be broken and parts would be missing.

If I strained and tried really hard I could work it out but it was hard going.

I quickly explained that I had a really bad line and I would call back! :eek:

I will have to bring my BT Converse 325 phone to work and see if that is any better. 
Wednesday, July 12, 2006, 04:00 PM
Apparently 75,900 people now have implants today thanks to cochlear!

I have just found out via Ivan's blog that Cochlear intend to bring out a mini processor in June or late summer.

This is so exciting as a smaller processor with a longer lasting battery would be so cool.

Features and improvements of the device include:

-- Unmatched Reliability: Initial data demonstrate that Freedom is the most reliable device ever designed by any manufacturer.

-- Improved Hearing Performance: Test scores show that Nucleus Freedom recipients adjust and perform better in shorter periods of time when measured against Cochlear's previous device, the Nucleus 24 Contour.

-- Improved battery life and additional battery options: The Nucleus Freedom system offers disposable and rechargeable power.

-- The Mini(TM) BTE (behind-the-ear) Controller: The discreet Mini BTE provides up to 4 days (12 hours = day) of battery life and can be personalized by a quick click of the cover to change the color panels.

-- SmartSound(TM) Innovation: SmartSound technology allows users to adapt to a range of listening environments for focused listening, comfort in noise, dynamic sound environments and soft and distant sounds.


I am so excited!!

RE I feel odd speaking down the phone to someone for the first time when they are not aware I am deaf/ implanted 
Wednesday, July 12, 2006, 02:56 PM
I feel really odd speaking on the phone with someone for the first time who does not know I am deaf.

If I say I just need you to be aware that I am deaf - wont they wonder how can she be, we are speaking on the phone? :eek:

If I say I just need you to be aware I have a cochlear implant because I was deaf - will they assume that I am no longer deaf! :eek:

I could say I just need you to be aware that I have a cochlear implant because I was deaf, but now I am hearing impaired so let me know if I get anything wrong?

Maybe that would be a good solution?

I have not called anyone at work yet - I chickened out and got someone else to make a call on my behalf - just as well I did as it got rather complicated :eek: I think I am going to need my minicom after all just incase it does get complicated and I can say look I will call you back in 5 mins on my minicom as I am not hearing you very well right now.

I dont have a mobile Typetalk compatable phone at the moment so thats something I am going to have to consider as they are so expensive and I ALWAYs drop mine :ooer::eek: they are not very pratcile when there is bright sun, or if its busy and there is no where to sit as I have to balance it on my lap, its tiny so its not very fast, no one can call me on it as I can only call out, and it does not vibarate! :eek:

Sometimes I wonder how I coped at work with it!:uh: So if at all possible I would rather use a voice mobile if I can. We will have to see. The really REALLY good thing about the motrola phone is I do not have to change settings to a different programe (3 and t) I can just put it stright to my ear.

The disadvantage about using a land line is I have to change settings on the processor and I can only do this by whiping it off and looking at what I am doing becuse its touch senstive and I have to hold the button down just right for it to change from 1, to 2, to 3 and then to T and it takes for bloody ever!:eek:

My Implant sounds quite 
Tuesday, July 11, 2006, 04:22 PM
I started a new job today and I noticed that my processor sounded really quite compared to my hearing aid. The speech sounds were much quieter than the traffic outside. :eek:I tried the beam but it did not help. I have checked the volume and the sensitivity and they are correct.:sad:

It really feels like I needed it to be a tad louder than I was getting - for speech. I have also noticed that a lot of people are struggling to hear me as though I am speaking really quite.:uh:

So I have contacted the center to see if I need a new map! :uh::wiggle: It could not have come at a worst time really.

I also noticed that I was just not picking up words people said like I normal would. So my guess is that my brain has decided that my map is no longer suitable and wants a more louder one!

RE why do the hearing people make it so hard? 
Monday, July 10, 2006, 11:37 AM
I called the GP surgery today as James needed to have his dressing checked again.

The lady told me I needed to call the reception on the otherside as she could not put me through. When she gave me the number she said double 8 etc.

So I explained that I was deaf and I just wanted to repeat it back to her. Rather than listen to me she gave it to me again still saying double 8 etc.

So I said look I am going to read back to you what I think you have said.

Once I had done that, she replied in a really cross voice yes thats correct.

*sigh* Why do hearing people make it so difficult?

On a brighter note I did get it right! :clap:

RE I went to sleep with my implant on 
Sunday, July 9, 2006, 10:15 PM
James is so sore he is unable to get himself in and out of bed right now. Knowing him as well as I do - he would rather lay there in pain than wake me up and ask me to help him! :eek::sad::kiss:

So I decided to leave my implant on - sure enough at about 1 am he was making I am in pain sounds which woke me up and I got up and helped him out of bed.

I left the light on and my processor on and about 3 am I heard him come back to bed and I helped him back in to bed.

It was not uncomfortable at all and I did wake up when I head him muttering and making sharp intakes of breath.

I would consider wearing it again if I was on my own as I always worry about the fire alarm (as we only have a sound one since I rely on James and very occassionly he works away)

off to bed :zzz:

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